Wow. Yes. I wonder if this connects: I’ve been told that I exhibit abnormal pain response due to abnormalities in the Anterior Cingulate Cortex. The idea was I don’t get a social “hurt” signal from physical pain. I had to work very hard years ago to learn to pay attention to and respond to pain. What is so weird though is that I will physically feel the emotional pain of others. So, I don’t feel my own physical pain as emotional nor my own emotional pain as physical, but I experience outrageous physical pain from hostility and those who are suppressing with hostility big emotions of hurt. It’s… I feel like I exist to be physically tortured. I wish this was understood. I have decades of debilitating illness behind me and I am not sick when I can get away from hostility.
This resonates with me a lot (especially with my experiences of missed miscarriage and childbirth)
Childbirth and gynae stuff comes up so often here and I think there is an extra payer of medical misogyny on top of the standard Autistic stuff
Wow. Yes. I wonder if this connects: I’ve been told that I exhibit abnormal pain response due to abnormalities in the Anterior Cingulate Cortex. The idea was I don’t get a social “hurt” signal from physical pain. I had to work very hard years ago to learn to pay attention to and respond to pain. What is so weird though is that I will physically feel the emotional pain of others. So, I don’t feel my own physical pain as emotional nor my own emotional pain as physical, but I experience outrageous physical pain from hostility and those who are suppressing with hostility big emotions of hurt. It’s… I feel like I exist to be physically tortured. I wish this was understood. I have decades of debilitating illness behind me and I am not sick when I can get away from hostility.